end of this blog...
...and the end of my exchange year.
the skin on my cheeks is so dry. lol. u know y?!
cuz since last saturday the day of my speech where i jus cudn stop cryin it just went on like that....
...on monday i made some kinda byebye party with friends of my class. we were 6 and we went to eat japanese curry (karereis), went to karaoke and made purikuras ---------- tears from this people, from other friends
...on tuesday i was planning to meet some of my friends of the 3rd year but sum rlly good friends of the 2nd made a party for me... like we were eatin dancin and talkin in one of da skuul rooms lolz -------- people come across to me with sad faces and that they will miss me, people i have barely talked to, they give me selfbacked cookies n cakes, little presents, come running across to me to hug me and say that i shouldnt leave japan
...today on wednesday, which is my last day but i think none of the 3rd or 1st year knows that, its only the second. im comin to school to the 2nd hour because the frist is free so im packing at home. ----------- when i come to school i accidentally meet a friend of the 3rd, im asking her to take the lesson with me and shes wondering and she shows a lil bit that she doesnt want, but when i tell her its my last day shes like paralyzed and shocked, she agrees, we go to the lesson --------------- the next is short home room. one of the 1st i scoming to me and giving me a small cute present with glittering eyes, nearly crying, and of course i cant stand that -------- the next is japanese class again, we talk with the teacher and finally the teacher gives me a present!!!!! wow what a surprise!!! i was just thinkin the teacher wouldnt.... its a book, an autobiografie of a intresting person and - its in japanese. the other exchange student - zak - gives me chocolate and a canadian flag hehe (so cute xD) i promise to come again to this class, to meet the teacher again when i finished school ---------- the fourth is long home room, they keep on talkin about the preparations for the oyosai and then the last the teacher says "bindys laevin and its her last day today so shell make a speech" im like...okay....lolz xD and i say that i really liked it, which is perfectly true, that i had a great time here, which is also true, that i wanted to graduate with them, with all these people who are lookin at me now with tears in their eyes, which couldnt be nearer to the truth, that im gonna miss them all and that i want to thank them. all this is perfectly what i feel at the moment and i dont think this feeling will change. never. --------- i can barely stand it but i win the fight against my tears, then when im on my way back to my seat , which is at the other side of the classroom, 2 girls come to me and say "this is for you from us. thank you so much"!!!! - okay - i think, i can stand it, i can stand it. i wave the overfilled letter and the paper with their c0omments --- my first tear drops --- and then i feel like a superstar because about 3/4 of the pplz begin to say i want to take a picture with her!!!! and they line up and make pictures with me(lol) one on one. ----- then somebody has jsyt the great idea that we could make a picture together and like 30 ppl just form - in seconds - a pose for a picture where u rlly can see everybodys face (haha). ----- then one for one keep on hugging me, one cries bitterly and it makes me so sad ---- a few tears fall--- but i keep on smiling like stupid so i wont cry not my face, but my heart is crying all the time. they make it so hard for me saying words that i cant stand and lookin at me with their tearfilled eyes. --------- the next is my ending ceremony and it is really fast. it is onloy me the head the vice and 7 other teachers who were more or less responsible for me. one teacher announces me and then the head stands up reads whats written on my document and gives it to me and im buckling deep and thanking him very much. next i have to make a speech how the japanese schoollife was for me. i cant anything but respond that i will not forget, that it was great, awful, wonderful, lonely, happy. they nodd in agreement and smile. the ceremonys ends. ------ next is physics, where i never do anything i just listen or talk or something. this time i make the makeup for my friend sitting next to me. again this byebye talk is starting, i change the subject as fast as possible. ------ the last 2 hours are math in english. we talk, he gives us back the tests. im not rlly satisfied but it doesnt matter. after school i run back to home, change my clothes and get ready for the concert
the RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS CONCERT
then i go to mcdonalds and then to the tokyo dome. it was funny and made much fun. i rocked them all. haha. japanese just stand and its not allowed to laever your seat to like get crazy at other places lol okay some get cray but only like one out of 60 or sth like that -.-
and now i came back and read all the letters of the people and i just cants stop crying. even now when im writing this ;_____________;
but today for the last time i said bye to my friends here
SAYONARA JAPAN,
SAYONARA TOKYO
SAYONARA KOKUSAI
SAYONARA MY FRIENDS
i will come someday again
